ambivalently
adv. 有矛盾感情地
If you say that someone is ambivalent about something, they seem to be uncertain whether they really want it, or whether they really approve of it.
She remained ambivalent about her marriage...
她对于自己的婚事仍然拿不定主意。
He maintained an ambivalent attitude to the Church throughout his long life.
在他漫长的一生中,他对基督教信仰始终是一种摇摆不定的态度。